During this time I am of course finding it hard to sit and binge watch netflix all day while being limited to what I can actually do after only arriving back in the UK, with not much notice, only two days ago... So, as usual and of course I find myself searching for meaningful things to take up my time and I stumbled across an article of "50 deep questions to ask yourself."
So, I answered them and here is what I answered...
When was the last time I told myself”I love you” ?
This is something that I dont think that I have ever asked myself in all of my years, I have said it plenty to those around me and feel it for many but never have a said these words to myself before, I had stated similar things like “ I am enough “ or “ you are doing good “ “ Dont give up & “ You are beautiful” but never “ I love you “ Maybe I will give it a try and see what happens…
Am I a better person today than I was yesterday?
I cant say if I am a better person today, what I can say is today I have tried my best.
Are my actions guided by love or fear?
When my actions are guided by love I feel as though I am limitless. All is limitless. Everything can come true… An yes, I find myself in this state many times however not all the time - I’d always work on being in love more than in fear - it is one of my life’s missions..
Am I a good example for those around me?
In some ways yes. In others No.
Is the life that I am living the life I want to be living?
Look, who knows… Basically yes. But would I want more security? More successes ? More of things physical, metal, spiriually? yes of course… its what drives me and I am starting to believe that if im not striving for more I will potentially become stagnant and numb.
What would I do with my life if I knew there were no limits?
I have no idea .
Do the people I surround myself with add any value to my life?
Most of them.
Am I a Human Being or a Human Doing?
For sure a human doing as a human being. Which I think is ok.
Am I following the crowd blindly or am I listening to my own heart and intuition?
I always listen to my heart and intuition… this way, I have found, whether its a success or a failure I accept it totally.
What would I do differently if I knew nobody would judge me?
What ? Hmmm maybe be louder with new people.
Do I treat myself with the love and respect I truly deserve?
I don’t think so.
Why am I so uncomfortable with talking to people I don’t know?
See above.
What is one thing I could start doing today to improve the quality of my life?
Having more belief in the “Big Plan”
When was the last time I told myself ‘I am enough‘?
Maybe last week - I do say this often as I think it is important and needed for people to believe this about themselves.
When was the last time I heard the words ‘I love you’?
About an hour ago.
When was the last time I did something nice for myself?
Around ten minutes ago - I made myself a tea and indulged in some good quality dark chocolate.
When was the last time I learned something new?
I'm currently learning Russian.
When was the last time I did something fun?
Around four days back playing ping pong for two hours in a Ukrainan desserted club in the middle of Goan lockdown with one of my favourite people in the world.
Am I a happy person?
Yes but over the last two years I have been a restless angry pain in the ass at times.
Am I a source of inspiration for my friends and family?
I hope so but sometimes I dont feel they understand what I am doing.
Who inspires me the most in this world?
God.
If I were to give one piece of advice to a newborn child, what would it be?
I have no idea and you dont either and both is ok.
Am I holding onto something I need to let go of?
For sure. But I try and work through it each and everytime I practice Yoga.
Is there someone who has hurt or angered me that I need to forgive?
No.
What can I do today to live a better life tomorrow?
Sleep well.
When was the last time I read a book that had a major influence on me?
A few months ago when a friend gifted me “Milk & Honey” by rupi kaur.
When was the last time I said I love you to someone and meant it?
A few hours ago.
When was the last time I made a new friend?
I rarely make good friends but I would say one of my last most significant friend making was over this season in Goa.
Does my presence add value to those around me?
I hope so. Not always I am sure - It depends what I am bringing to the table on the occasion.
Am I a pleasant person to be around?
Not all the time.
What parts of my life don’t reflect who I am?
My attitude between the age of around 3-13.
What has my heart and intuition been telling me that I might be ignoring?
That its all going to be ok.
Am I on the right path?
I think im on "A" path that can be right for me I believe.
Where am I not being honest with myself and why?
I cant really pin it.. I don't know - I can be pretty brutally honest with myself at times.
Who is that one person I can talk to about just anything?
Emma.
Am I comfortable with being uncomfortable?
Yeah. I’ve gotten pretty used to it over the years.
Do I enjoy my own company?
Yes, sometimes more so than most others.
Can I be alone without feeling lonely?
Yes, but very rarely there are times when I am feeling lonely and need to not be alone but not because I am alone.
What is one thing I love the most about myself?
My drive.
Do I take things personally?
Yes. Its conditioning that still needs to be shed.
What makes me happy?
Creating beautiful things.
What do I think about when I’m alone?
What I can create next.
What am I most passionate about?
Creating.
Where will we go after we die and what’s going to happen to us?
I have no idea and its something that scares… Something I am working through each and every day. How funny ey?
Who are the people who believe in me?
Myself. Most of the time. An everyone else once they really get to know me.
What do I want to be remembered for?
Creating beauty in this World.
If I were to die tomorrow, would any of this matter?
Yes. For a little while… until it doesn’t anymore.
If I could live anywhere in the world, where would I live?
In a tiny house with Nature around me.
Do I love myself as much as I expect others to love me?
I dont expect others to love me, I would love if they loved what I had to offer.
So I would like to say I love what I have to offer as much as I want, but do not expect, it from others.
What am I most thankful for?
Life itself.
Thank you Luminita D. Saviuc for such questions …