During this time I am of course finding it hard to sit and binge watch netflix all day while being limited to what I can actually do after only arriving back in the UK, with not much notice, only two days ago... So, as usual and of course I find myself searching for meaningful things to take up my time and I stumbled across an article of "50 deep questions to ask yourself."
So, I answered them and here is what I answered...
When was the last time I told myself”I love you” ?
This is something that I dont think that I have ever asked myself in all of my years, I have said it plenty to those around me and feel it for many but never have a said these words to myself before, I had stated similar things like “ I am enough “ or “ you are doing good “ “ Dont give up & “ You are beautiful” but never “ I love you “ Maybe I will give it a try and see what happens…
Am I a better person today than I was yesterday?
I cant say if I am a better person today, what I can say is today I have tried my best.
Are my actions guided by love or fear?
When my actions are guided by love I feel as though I am limitless. All is limitless. Everything can come true… An yes, I find myself in this state many times however not all the time - I’d always work on being in love more than in fear - it is one of my life’s missions..
Am I a good example for those around me?
In some ways yes. In others No.
Is the life that I am living the life I want to be living?
Look, who knows… Basically yes. But would I want more security? More successes ? More of things physical, metal, spiriually? yes of course… its what drives me and I am starting to believe that if im not striving for more I will potentially become stagnant and numb.
What would I do with my life if I knew there were no limits?
I have no idea .
Do the people I surround myself with add any value to my life?
Most of them.
Am I a Human Being or a Human Doing?
For sure a human doing as a human being. Which I think is ok.
Am I following the crowd blindly or am I listening to my own heart and intuition?
I always listen to my heart and intuition… this way, I have found, whether its a success or a failure I accept it totally.
What would I do differently if I knew nobody would judge me?
What ? Hmmm maybe be louder with new people.
Do I treat myself with the love and respect I truly deserve?
I don’t think so.
Why am I so uncomfortable with talking to people I don’t know?
See above.
What is one thing I could start doing today to improve the quality of my life?
Having more belief in the “Big Plan”
When was the last time I told myself ‘I am enough‘?
Maybe last week - I do say this often as I think it is important and needed for people to believe this about themselves.
When was the last time I heard the words ‘I love you’?
About an hour ago.
When was the last time I did something nice for myself?
Around ten minutes ago - I made myself a tea and indulged in some good quality dark chocolate.
When was the last time I learned something new?
I'm currently learning Russian.
When was the last time I did something fun?
Around four days back playing ping pong for two hours in a Ukrainan desserted club in the middle of Goan lockdown with one of my favourite people in the world.
Am I a happy person?
Yes but over the last two years I have been a restless angry pain in the ass at times.
Am I a source of inspiration for my friends and family?
I hope so but sometimes I dont feel they understand what I am doing.
Who inspires me the most in this world?
God.
If I were to give one piece of advice to a newborn child, what would it be?
I have no idea and you dont either and both is ok.
Am I holding onto something I need to let go of?
For sure. But I try and work through it each and everytime I practice Yoga.
Is there someone who has hurt or angered me that I need to forgive?
No.
What can I do today to live a better life tomorrow?
Sleep well.
When was the last time I read a book that had a major influence on me?
A few months ago when a friend gifted me “Milk & Honey” by rupi kaur.
When was the last time I said I love you to someone and meant it?
A few hours ago.
When was the last time I made a new friend?
I rarely make good friends but I would say one of my last most significant friend making was over this season in Goa.
Does my presence add value to those around me?
I hope so. Not always I am sure - It depends what I am bringing to the table on the occasion.